are you still with me?
so. this weekend we found a secret French patisserie in Cooktown and headed out for a drive to the fab Elim Beach where we chatted with local resident and sometime TO tour guide.
and now i'm thinking, I don't want to go home! but, I do want to get back to cairns to try that chicken mac. that looks tasty.
we are past the halfway point on this journey and I have done some deep dives into my psyche, as well as my project, and I am really loving this life. any jobs going here, jawun? (lol, jks, I kid, i'll be back to Canberra cold soon).
so apart from loving my weekend, I also did a GIRLS-lena dunham-episode-inspired search into what my fatal flaw is.
and while i'm not going to share it here...
ok.
ok!
i'll share already! just don't claim TMI.
how to put this. it feels weird writing it out. I think my biggest flaw is not giving 100 percent to everything and just hoping it'll work out alright (and then blaming the unfairness inherent in the world for my life not being awesome or amazing enough). those of you who work with me wouldn't see this, because work is one place I really put effort in. but most other areas of my life are suffering a lack of attention (not to say I don't give them attention, just that I wing it - when I could take charge and get the outcome I want).
part of me wants to say that this isn't fair, right. like why do I have to always put attention in? and to that part of me I say "because you have high expectations".
so, random experiment, i'm going to try to give more in all my interactions. like right now for instance, sharing this super deep thingo about how my life is just well ordinary when I really want to be extraordinary. so this year I am going to:
- plan that trip to the camino (and prepare for it thoroughly, including by purchasing the exact boots Cheryl Strayd wears in Wild - look it up)
- start that morning ritual (instead of sleeping in) - yoga, meditation, jumping rope even
- find that next secondment / volunteering opportunity
and generally just live my best life.
because i'm worth it (cue hair flick - and I got the hair for it, yeah?)